Weight

I am so, so hesitant to even write this post.

I just don't know for sure who reads my blogs.

And that makes me nervous.

BUT ...

I started writing this for MYSELF ONLY.
This is a place for MY thoughts. MY feelings. MY journey.

And if it can help someone else, or encourage someone else, then I will share it for that purpose.
And I just hope that anyone reading will not judge or be critical.

My weight and my body image is something I have always struggled with.

I was sooo happy in 2008 when I was successful taking off about 15 pounds.
I was content with the way I looked.
But, as life would have it, I took those steps forward .....
just to go backwards again in time.

The last year has been filled with finishing school,
being pregnant,
giving birth to my pride and joy,
and adjusting to schedules.

I can't complain!

I have been patient with myself with losing the "baby fat"
But lately I seem to be creeping in the wrong direction.
I have always hated my mid-section;
and lately even more so.

So.
This journey has become about more than just running
and getting in shape.
It is about that content feeling.
It is about accepting where I am, but also getting where I want to go.

But I guess it always has been about all of the above.
My focus is just shifting ... but just a little.
Because ultimately I want to run those 13.1 miles in April.
and I know that by itself will take care of those other issues!

This mornings weight? 189.2
Here's to only letting it go down from here.