OFF.

Up front, I admitted that over the years I have been an on again - off again runner.

It's just how it's been.

This problem isn't that I dislike running, or that I get bored.

The problem seems to be balancing everything life has to offer. I tend to get so wrapped up in one thing or another, that something has to give; you know? It also has to do with not enough time in a day. Lately, as in the last month or two, it has been a little bit of both.

A little bit of both, and yet it has been all about our schedule as a family. Chad working 3rd shift has been relatively smooth and easy for us to adjust to. But, the one thing that has been hard on me is feeling like I have no time to myself. Running in the morning is clearly not an option. Running in the evening has been difficut, too. The hard part for Chad has been sleeping during the day. So, he sleeps a few hours during the day and then goes back to bed around 7 for a couple of hours before work. This takes away any time I could've had to myself. And that I have given up to make 3rd shift work.

I do realize I could go right after work. And I have a few times. But I feel like that is such a bad time to go with a family at home. I guess you can take that as an excuse or as a reason. Whichever you want to call it, it is me figuring out my priorities and sticking to them. My family will come before running on any given day. Supper time as a family is important to me.

Anyway.

That is where I have been these last few weeks -- being a mom and a wife versus a runner. (Just to clarify - it's not that I haven't worked out at all! Just saying ....)

But .... this weekend we got lucky at a garage sale. We found a used, but working, treadmill for $20. $20.

So - while I would prefer time out of the house at the gym or outside ... at least I have the option of getting up early and running while the baby sleepts.

Here's to hoping I find my groove. And get back into it.

Even with all this going on!!